how i spend my 2days off?

basically sleeping, online, facebook-ing, LAN, movie, & i did E-learning too!=D

Sunday, peikshin's outing with her friends was cancelled hence she messaged me and said we can go out together.
we had a discussion on MSN, but we came to a decision after so long as we didnt know what to do and where to go.
was planning badminton but didnt carry out the plan.
then conclusion is LAN in the daytime! wooohoo! first time! thats so cool. went with weilong and his girl. not much people there and the temperature there was freezing us.
approx 2hours of game, we wandered around Safra Jurong to see what others entertainment they provided. theres swimming pool, Gym and a Hani's Cafe.
went to JP and had Tori-Q for dinner with peikshin and weilong's girl. *bloated*

didnt know theres food fair and we went up to buy durian pancake! ohmy!
get to see Xuansheng on our way up to escalator. yeah, its a long-time-no-see-friend. haha
after eating the durian pancakes, i wont be talking to other people, scared they stink to death!=X but luckily the 3of us are durian freaks =X
delicious food everywhere! ARRR! im gonna buy them today! hiakhiakhiak!

and we felt like watching movie again after that. Thanks to hantheng for the Safra Card and we entitled discount on tickets. wee!
we watched Obsessed! the movie that i wanna watch!
Beyonce is damn cool in the show! Catch it peeps!

♥ 2:09 PM

furious working hours,days and time.
she's finally entitled 2 off days straight.
and after that she's gonna turn zombie again for 5days straight with exhausting hours hectic shifts with 1 off day after that.
please pray hard for this poor nurse here.

im seriously pissed in changing of shifts.
it's really really exhausting.
please, i dont want to change my shifts already.
no amendments please.
ive already made sacrifices twice!
body clock not adjusted back properly after night shifts and gonna be back on shift is really chaotic.
i dont wish to take any more leave either, unless really necessary.
i need ALs for my own life in months or future too.

it seems like anytime i would just die out of human battery life.=.=

okay perserverence!

i felt lucky to have my bunch of clique.
we often meet up for L4D eversince the game was introduced to them.
in fact, i think it creates opportunity to build up our bonding, and it gives a chance for clique gathering regardless of full attendence.
if were to compare, before we meet up for L4D, look at the number of times we had for gatherings. it's countable, doesnt it?

yup, regardless of exhaustion/unhappiness/stress/weariness during or after work, we still try to have time to pamper ourselves for some games. i believe reasons we gave are such as de-stress, to be felt relieved and to clear our missions in games.

but thanks peeps, you guys are really great.<3

ya. i just feel like letting out now.
it's tiring, it's tiring, it's tiring.

nightmares VS dreams.
they were both mixed-up.
i want none of it to appear.
at least let me have a peaceful sleep or sweet dreams perhaps?
nightmares of working in ward or some L4D scenes were horrifying.
they freaked me out in between my sleeping hours and interferes my sleep.=.=

arrrr...yes i know. im having moodswing hence im behaving like that.
not to be surprised. females are like that i believe!

okay. 2.35am, sleeping time.

if only.
im wishing.

♥ 2:05 AM

after Conversion, it's conversion again. but i like this conversion this time round.(:
we are back to W52. we were so glad when we heard this piece of news during the roll call in W51 on Tuesday. YIPPEE!

well, let me start my stories from days back okay.(:

it has been a history since i last went to Science Centre.
i went there again at my 19th years! haha.
OOPS, should be 20th now.=.=
4th july, peikshin and i went there for Da Vinci the genius' Exhibition on his workstuffs and his Mono Lisa drawing.
discovered the 25secrets of his drawings but i dont think they are secrets to me.=X
we spent 2hours in the exhibition.
sorry peeps, no photo-taking hence we took none other than e only one i took below. haha.
we paid extra 1buck for Science Centre and we left no time for it.=(
i want to go Science Centre and play!!! we spent the very last minute doing a quick 'round' of Science Centre at 6pm and off we went off. fun!=(
PEIKSHIN! we shall go again okay! anyone interested too?=D
then back to JP, had our dinner and proceed to Jurong Safra for our L4D game again.

not to forget, 4th July, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HELME! MISS YA!=D
may forever-happiness for you and your hubby!=D

and 5th July, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIANLIANG!
its sunday, was working on PM shift. zhangyuan was admited to A&E e day before as she vomited and got to be observed in there and entitled 2days MC and left me the only Staff Nurse from 52 working. but luckily i have Ana, Jasmine, Jannah and Zel.(: one of the nicest housemen's birthday is approaching and Ana and i went down to bought him a Spiderman cake haha!=X
duh-duh! pics not received yet. must wait okay=D
yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DR SUNDER! in advance! haha. he's damn nice! not forgetting Dr Pearlly too!=D they are nice people!=D

7th july, farewell for kengfai who's gonna be enlisted!
it's last day of working in W51. worked morning, and its damn hectic to me.
and i was damn hungry.
2 patients with almost the same treatment, i almost got mixed up.
plan to have Korean food at Bukit Timah Plaza.
was looking forward to eat my carrot cake! wee!
but the mini shop closed down!=.=
luckily, there's another Korean stall.(:
we ordered many food! =X
yummy! i wanna have the carrot cake again!

yesterday, was suppose to be my off day, was changed to PM shift.
empty ward become occupated.
busy! i have 2admissions during my shift, total 3patients.
i dont know what im busy with,with just 3patients, that i have no time for meal=.=
roar! lousy me!

skipped work stuffs.=.=
kengfai messaged that he needs to do his last minute shopping prior to enlistment.
so met up peikshin and kengfai at JP for his last minute shopping.
and both of us feel like killing him as he doesnt know what to prep for his barang barang, and good thing is he lost his piece of paper which was sent to him on what to bring for enlistment=.=
both of us tried our ways calling and messaging people for help asking what to bring for enlistment. whack you ar ho keng fai!
after buying stuffs, im craving for Cinnamon Melts at Mac. =D
i had improper dinner; 1bottle of Ice Lemon tea, few cubes of Dairy Milk chocolate, Cinnamon Melts, one mochi & a doraemon's snack =X

and finally i got an off day today!
hais! tomorrow morning shift!=(
can i just play for the rest of my life.=(
working is tiring.=(

i shall go run later! and treat myself with Cinnamon Melts again.(:

*CHI-KI*


look how spicy those food are! oops sorry. accidentally shot esther=X
i craved for cheesecake after dinner on Science centre day=x
my only Science centre pic
(:

♥ 12:58 PM

my ward converting to H1N1 ward! taking in confirmed cases!

im quite excited though there were fears! as i wanna know how to nurse them and at least at an experience in it! right now, plan spoilt! ROAR!

by right today is AM shift.
woke up at 5am, and received a call from ward.
it's zhiyan on the line. i thought i was dreaming or what, cos she sounds like passing roll call,
saying 'our ward census now is only 3patients.....'
i was like 3 patients only?! where have the rest gone to?!?!?
i was still preparing to send my patient to operation today.

then she mentioned no need so many staffs to work this morning, so she asked if wants to take AL or PH. i took my AL instead.
felt so weird and little bit guilty for not workingO.o
urgh!

told my mummy no need to work, and back to my bed again. YAWNS.
woke up at 10plus as i have been sleeping from 8plus yesterday muahaha.. super tired!
received call from ward again, saying that i will be deployed to other Ortho Wards.
i dont want that! ROAR!
cos we are new and still under probation. expected reason, we thought. but it's the fact, reasoned by sister.
hais. plan spoilt!

feel like tearing my checklist.
nobody we know to guide us.
will they treat us like dogs?!
will they bully us?
i guess i will suffer out there.
i have to readapt the environment. oh please. a phoebia.
hais. hais.
i want to go back to my ward.

we can only go back when it converts back to ortho surgical.
when will it be?=(

♥ 1:24 PM

okay. 11.32pm. before i sleep, i wanna announce...

tomorrow onwards the ward, me, gonna handle H1N1 patients!
Isolation wards are full! arrr!
wish me lucks! thank you!(:

and i aiming for off day on wednesday again!(:

i simply love to work on weekends.

okok. sleeping time!

finally i got to shop yesterday! weee!
i will update again okay! byees!=D

♥ 11:32 PM

nothing special other than 2 days.

firstly, it's BLSS SJAB 30th anniversary Rehearsal on the 20th.
woke up in the morning, changed to half-uniform.
unfortunately my skirt zip spoilt!=.= but still can wear. hahaha.
full-u time!
rehearsal and practices start.
changes and changes.
and my command script left pathetic few lines.
aww~ i was mentally prepared but nehmind!

and yeah! RSM!
but actual 30th BLSS SJAB postponed!
instead of tomorrow, 27/6/09, it gonna be on ?date.

arrr....my off day!
i havent adjust my body clock yet and back to work after my sleeping day.
and now was cancelled! ROAR!

nehmind.

anyway, 23rd was peikshin's 20th!
after shift, went kengfai's house and design a doraemon cake for her.
after few attempts finally! haha.
call her house for mummy to arrange the surprise.
her mummy asked me to call her, i said "cannot! it's a surprise!" haha
then she said she will call me when she's back.
after hung up the phone, i noticed she doesnt have my number, how can she call me?!O.o
dont tell me she'll get it from peikshin and there goes the surprise!
but afterall, went to her house and surprise her!
and she was touched! wohoo!

photos as follow...
RSM! wee!

yeah! she cried!


we forgot to get candles from bakery and we used this=.=

so how's my design? hahaha

and finally! GSS, im coming tomorrow!

♥ 12:03 AM

i've neglected my blog for nearly 10days.

listen to me today.

post-night.
my second night was over.
i just couldnt sleep well after that.
i had nightmares of ward.

i was so scared this morning.
so so scared.
i thought everything would go smoothly till i go home.
i was so confident to pass all my reports independently.
until a dumb careless mistake was found by morning staff.
i felt so so so dumb.
i felt like crying. crying badly, i wanted to relieve by crying but i couldnt squeeze a teardrop out from my eyeballs.
having such big eyeballs is a waste.=.=

another staff asked me to think positive.
yes, i agreed to every single word she said and asked me not to worry and relax.

i just find myself not capable.
thought of working as a nurse life-long, but i think i find myself incapable.
='(

i cant explain how i feel,
i wanna cry it out loud.
its a nightmare to me.

L4D shall kills it for me.
peikshin wanna vexed her anger out.
we shall play later.
my life's a dragggg.

im depressed.

♥ 7:32 PM